from a very good friend

"the only harmony a person needs is in his/her heart.
to be at peace with all the imperfections with herself/himself and with all the pain in the world."

i need days like this.

good plug/bloods day
ilovewritingblueletters
busybusybusy

biting into what i thought was an ordinary choc chip muffin
and getting a mouthful of warm gooey chocolate ganache in return.

"you complete me"

running so hard that i stitch
nice clothes in the mail :)

cold shower.

i like my potatoes. mashed.

yay
one more place to chill. connect. carboload.

monstermash is here!

i think i make a sucky ho

230pm on a weekday and i'm home!
feels weird.

post-call
all i can think of is flopping into a heap on the floor and just never waking up.

survived on calbee seaweed flavour for dinner
and peach tea, very generously sponsored by drdonovan
only started getting hungry at around 3am
by then only therip-offplacethatcallsitself7-11 was open.
so no choice lor.
pchips seemed like a good choice then.

clerked a couple of the incoming cases
giddiness, chest infx, sepsis
went to cardio to clerk chest pain chest pain and more chest pain
and bloods
waking patients up in the middle of the night to poke them is no fun
thankful that most of my patients were nice and obliging
(well, they cant really do much even they protested)
i think those ECG + CE X3 are the most poor things.

got to squeeze in some sleep at about 5-6am
from 4-5am my brain was seriously malfunctioning
dunno how the hell i got from level9 to level8
don't recall taking either the stairs or the lifts.
i hope i didn't kill anyone.

i like taking bloods
probably the only thing im good at with regards to medicine
other times i feel like a total klutz during rounds
half the time i dunno what is it i can/cannot do
and i feel bad asking the HOs cos they're so busy
and i can't even answer questions properly
dunno how i'm going to make it through mbbs

week1 as a sipper and im slowly getting into the groove of things
though my case-note writing skills are still quite pok
and im still quite blur on how to phrase everything into medspeak on the notes
and my physical examination skills are going down the drain because all my exams are now chopchophurryup focussed ones
(actually no excuse lah, should still be able to do a proper one. i should stop being so lazy and inertia-fied)

got the weekend off yay
get some studying done and most of it better stick (be it my brain or anywhere else on my body. brain preferred)
maybe re-evaluate my life plans

geri next week!
grouchy old ladies, wrinkly old men
and collapsible veins!

with crossed fingers and toes

m5
in a few hours

official sip-er
casenotes discharges prescriptions wardrounds blueletter
nightcalls

wish me luck!

i love matcha ice-cream!

dinner with the girls has always been a delightful affair.
pasta de waraku
gobbled up c's remaining 2 oysters cos she said they "tasted funny"
and boy were they full of zinc (and other things i don't really want to know)
made my breath stink for a bit after that. eeurch

j remarked that our 10 year anniversary is approaching
and yay! we should all celebrate when that happens
we've seen each other through our scrawny teenage days (ok, i wasn't that scrawny), bowling sessions in china, bad hair, crushes, hook-ups to break-ups, stupid petty fights, university deadlines, family/bf/tuition/other-friend commitments
and the 3 of them have recently just made tiny steps into the big bad corporate world (congrats!)
we're all still good friends. amazing. :)

post-dinner shopping
stepped into zaramyfavouriteplace and picked up a summery pair of t-bar flats - on sale!
got abit lost amidst the mind-boggling array of mascaraseyelinersblushersglossestweezers (someone please teach me about makeup) at sasa and stumbled upon the coolest invention ever - electric eyelash curler! on discount!
techgeek in me wanted one. vainpot in me screamed at me to get it. cheapskate ah soh in me said mustbuymustbuy!
so i got it lor.
damn cool la.
can zhng my lashes and use for self-defense.


just acquired an extra mahjong table and mj set from my late granny
so that makes 2!
enough to open my own illegal gambling den
so i say comecome! my place is open 24/7 (if you're willing to come down to ulu eastwood)
cold drinks and stale biscuits provided.


may is getting married and i'm excited!
met her on thurs to pick up a couple of last minute stuff (and ended up shopping again)
seeing her all rosy and radiant makes me think of how shums would have been so happy for her sis. still remember her little happy jump that ended off with a tiny sideward kick.
if she were still here.

it's been more than 2 years since she left
and although nothing can ever fill up that gaping hole she left behind
it's nice to know that the people that love her are trying to move on with their lives.
i miss her.

they're all moving on
so should i.

i don't wanna be a char siew pau

charsiewpau and mantou got dumped by their respective boyfriends.
but only charsiewpau cried her little heart out.

why?

because charsiewpau had fillings.