i think i have osa

vivid, weird dreams.

#1.4 driving a convertible with the top down, flinging out stacks of patho notes
talking rabbits and pot-smoking friends
#1.4, again, skipping (?!) in my room

then a sudden! flash of brilliance,
that if the seabed could be heated to boiling temperatures,

we could make delicious seafood soup!

best days.

best sis. in. the. world.

emailed the sis again.
as always, each email carves yet another hollow.

i miss her.

thought that me leaving earlier for hong kong would make things less hard.
that i would be so busy with settling in and stuffing my face that there would be barely time for everything to register.
and we could skip the customary hug-and-cry-buckets at the airport scene.

but ultimately, it still comes around and hits you with a vengeance.
doubly hard.

no more late night talk cock sessions.
driving out for starbucks/macs suppers.
bitching to one another about everything.
sharing clothes.
(now i got no more clothes to kope, seeing you luggage-d practically your whole cupboard to sydney)
bullying the 2 younger ones.

it's like the person you've been sharing your life with for the past 20 years suddenly *poof got transplanted somewhere else.

i know there's emails, skype webcam-ing and long-distance phonecalls.

but it's not the same. will never be the same.

you won't just be "next door", with only a toilet between us
but 265461836733 miles and an ocean away.
(and a stupid 3 hour time difference)
now i cannot anyhow pop by your room whenever i feel like it,
unless i intend to talk to the wall.

im going home in 3 days time
and when i go into your room because i want to tell you about my elective and also to talk rubbish,
you won't be there.

(ok, typing the above made me tear a little. so i better stop being so mush and sentimental)

see lah, now my singtel bill is going to go up.
my internet usage will be phenomenal (like it isn't already)
and maybe the postman will become my new bestfriend.

and p.s. i'm jealous!
my sister gets to have a rawking (good) life downunder

and i get to do double kitchen duty...

:)
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