how many faces can you make in 10seconds?

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taken yesterday night at marketcafe, raffles the plaza during mum's birthday celebs.

food wasn't all that bad. nice spread.
particularly enjoyed the hors d’œuvre/canapés/whatever you call those things-lying-on-tiny saucers-in-even-tinier-portions cos it's so rich that when you eat more than 2atago you feel damn jelat.

hellogorgeous :)

and the durian pengat. which i didn't take a picture of. because we were all too busy stuffing ourselves.
and really, a bowl of yellow gunk just doesn't do well in pictures.

ended the night with more photo-taking, which my parents were, strangely, complete sports.
days like these - when my mum willingly airkisses in front of the camera, are (really!!!) hard to come by. :)

my favourite shot of the night:

must be the food!

heh. my dad can be so adorable.

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seeing him today sucked.

i mean, it was nice meeting him again after so long.
he looked like he grew skinnier.
i wanted to tell him that.

but when i went over to talk to him,
to say hi; to try to get things back to normal;
my heart just plummetted and all my happy thoughts went poof! outofthewindow
monosyllabic answers; eyes on some ancient yellowing newspaperclipping on proper posture.

i've never experienced so many conflicting emotions in that short 10second span of talking to him.
hopeconfusionpersistencehurtiwanttomakethisworkjoyresignation.
i alternated between wanting to tell him i kindofmiss him to wanting to smack his head, throttle him and tell him to talk to me like a normal person.

so much for wanting to be better friends.

(not-so) brand new person; brand new start

free cone love!

one of my favourite days of the year!
(the others being birthdays, weekends & holidays)

strawberry cheesecake
:)

the happy people co. rock my socks
for starting a b&j franchise
for giving out free scoops of my favourite ice-cream
and not puny scoops that normally is the case with freebies
scoops large enough for you to spend a good 15min eating
enough for you to get your entire face coated in a sticky film of pink gunk
and still have some left over to sticky-fy your arms too.

so today i learnt loads about palliative care;
hospice home care (not all cancer patients stay in the hospital);
i saw 2 patients with terminal cancer.
i didnt really know what to feel when i saw them.
pity? sadness? helplessness?

the tutorial about death & dying
i got reminded of my granny and her last days/weeks/months/whatever
i don't know if it was right for me to stop her from drinking her 2cupsof coffee; eating hotcakes from macs/meereebus/whatever she wanted.

because ultimately, with death as the common endpoint,
nothing else before that matters;
save for that small dollop of happiness from doing whatever you want,
even in the last stages of your life.